aku malu

x yah cakap bnyk. straight to the point. di bawah ni adalah komen2 berkenaan kuota baru biasiswa oleh JPA, which is 50% bumiputera, 45% non-bumiputera dan 5% kaum2 lain.

tak stuju dgn jpa y nk tggikn kuota kpd hmpir 50% utk non-bumi, bknny pe.. kite kene la tlg bdk2 mlayu.. bangsa kite sndiri mstila diutamakan, kalo tgk org2 cina n indian pn, dorg dpt gak bantuan2 biasiswa len dri mca, mic n other ngo..

sedih tgok bdk2 mlayu y nk sgt dpt biasiswa tuh. sampe ade y hntr ke newspper pertikaikan isu ade-yang-dapt dgn ade-y-xdpt biasswa. spatutnye diutamakn golongan y miskin n brpndptn rndh, tp ade jek yg gune org dlm utk dptkn bsswa. anak dato', anak menteri sume sng giler nk dpt.. aslkn de orang y kje or de hbngn dgn jpa, trus bleh jamin biasswa dlm tgn.

btw, sy mnntg skrs2nya pngktn kuota jpa.

and this is the reply from an Indian guy, who read the comment:

No offense, but that's bullcrap. The part about non-malays getting other scholarships, I mean. I'm not a Malay - I have a Tamil heritage and I'm damn right proud of it. When I left SPM with 11A1s, I didn't get a single scholarship. MARA was closed to me because, hey, guess what, I'm not a Malay! Ditto went for JPA and other sources, even though I had friends with mediocre results who managed to be sent to Australia and other countries. I went to study in Florida, doing Aerospace Engineering. How? Simple, I begged a hundred people to give me some money, my parents sold their property, I took a gigantic personal loan. What you don't get is that us "org2 cina n indian" as you put it put this incredibly huge value on education, that when we don't get help we will go for all extreme measures - we'll sell our houses, cars, property, take huge loans, etc - to get the education. However, does that mean that you should close it off to us? How about the son of a rubber tapper who doesn't have a house to sell? It's a true story, this kid scored 14 A1s or something, but he didn't get a JPA scholarship, while my Malay friend with 8As managed to get one. What would he do? He wanted to be a doctor. After his story came out in the newspaper, NUS offered him a scholarship and he went there. Do you think he'll come back to Malaysia to serve the people?

And let me tell you this. I'm 4th generation Malaysian. When I see an Indonesian guy's kids getting JPA/MARA scholarships just because he married a Malay woman, whereas a guy like me who has lived his entire life (up to three generations before him) in Malaysia and calls this beautiful land my home because I'm apparently a second-class citizen? It hurts. It hurts deeply. It's like your own mother telling you that you're not worth it, it's like your own mother disowning you.

What you don't seem to get is that every slight, every unfairness, every single piece of discrimination that we get in this beloved country of us hurts us. It tells us that we're nothing but second class citizens in a place we're willing to die for. It tells us that no matter how much we love this country, the country doesn't love us back that much.

I used to be a patriotic loyalist, getting annoyed at people who leave the country and all that. But now I'm starting to see things from their point of view. Do I want to bring up MY children in a place where they will be treated as second class citizens? It hurts me to write that - it really does, you guys can check with Nuar (he's an admin, I think, and my best friend from secondary school) and he'd tell you that I've always been incredibly loyal to MY COUNTRY - Malaysia. But when I need to think about the future of my children... it does give rise to that question.

Still, there's no place like home. And I've gone off-topic, pardon me for that.

aku malu. aku malu. malu dengan bangsa Melayu sendiri.

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